Apologies, no response or triggering intended. I just needed to get this out. I have deleted FB etc but just needed to write this bollocks somewhere where there are other humans.
Sometimes being an army spouse is the loneliest place in the world. Your old friends have moved on, your family is sick of your melancholy. You go days without speaking to another adult. Any pre-existing confidence or self esteem has slowly left you an anxious, depressed carcass of your former self. Sometimes it is just too damn difficult to slap that fake smile on and bother anymore. And eventually you can fail to see the point at all.
Phew.