As a sufferer of pretty acute post natal depression i dont there is enough awareness on this subject. When i had my first baby i was 17 and in a bad relationship with an older man who treated me badly, gave me an sti when i was pregnant and didnt support me or buy anything for the baby. I did not know why i was having terrible thoughts of harming my newborn, but the thoughts were there and i didnt know what to think or what to do. I didnt have any support from health visitors or midwifes and i didnt tell anyone what thoughts i was having as i was scared what would happen to me and my baby. When i eventually told someone what thoughts i was having, i was called into a meeting with a social worker, my childs fathers mother, my support worker who made me talk about the thoughts and how best to deal with it. At the time i thought it would be best for his own safety for my child to live with his father until i got myself better, i didnt get better i got worse and texted my childs father saying i was going to harm him, the baby and everyone around them. I was 17, vanrauble, and didnt think what i said would hve any repercussions, it did, he called the social worker who was dealing with our case, told her what id said and i had my baby removed from my care less than a week after i sent the message i was in court, not having a clue what was happening or what i should say i just accepted this was my fate and that my son was better off without me. I went further downhill, drinking taking drugs partying all the time. I never knew i had PND til it was too late and my son was out of my care! 6years lter i have another baby and i still have depression and anxiety, i feel that i havent been diagnosed right but i dont know where to turn to get advise, or whether il ever get my first born back in my care. My second born is in my care and i cant thank my support network enough for picking me up when i was at my lowest!!!