Please help (trigger self harm)

[Knit1Purl1K2tog]

I've just had the biggest argument with my husband that's been boiling for a while. I feel like I'm a terrible person. He's sleeping in the kitchen-diner now, otherwise I think I might overdose. I've just cut for the first time in over a year, so I really feel like I've failed, but it's the only thing that made me feel better. I don't know how we're going to ever move on from this.

You need help and support for yourself before you can help and support anything else such as your relationship. Book a doctors appointment ASAP! Start looking after you and the rest won't be so much of a battle x

I find that although I don't do it regularly, there are still times when I want to, or believe that everything will be better if I do cut. I have regular therapy and that has helped me to put the brakes on and notice when I'm wanting to do it, and solve the problem instead of cutting. It's taken six years and I can usually stop myself now, but if I do it then it doesn't destroy all the hard work I've done or mean that it's something in need to do again.
I'm not sure how helpful a GP would be, I found therapy the only thing that made a difference.

Thanks guys; I feel a bit better this morning. I booked a GP appointment last night online for 2 weeks time. I'm already on the maximum dosage of antidepressants, but there may be something else she can suggest. As regards therapy, I've had some in the past- it was helpful in helping me manage my mood and triggers to self-harm etc. I think what got me down was that I'd been well and not cut for years, and last night was just a huge blip that made me feel like I'm back at square one.