Right ... i have a good life... got what most people wish they had... good job.. great house... two lovely dc. but i am feeling more and more empty and depressed and withdrawn.... i don't have any friends and it is going to remain that way .... i know that's part of reason... but suddenly all the negative things in my life have been magnified and i am feeling so overwhelmed. our neighbors have not liked us from day 1 cos of building works we did... asked neighbors guest politely one day to move their car which was blocking my driveway... and they went into a mad abusive fit with me... throwing so many abuses saying no one on street liked me...this was lady of the house... since then her hubby has started to block my drive every day and it just brings me down the thot of coming home to this. being a man and being fickle enuf to try and be part of a petty argument his wife got into.
my brother does not want any contact with me or my children because he is too busy... only lives 15 min away. he and my sil prefer to hang out with child free adults... but i feel sorry for my kids as they got no other adult who they can turn to.
my hubby family verbally abuse me ... they dont swear but even if they have five min with me they will find a way to demean me..
my hubby also has a friend who like inlaws tries to bring me down in our friends group. and like in laws dig is usually bout my mothering skills.
cos of them i hav really withdrawn into my shell and prefer to hav least contact with them so i don't get hurt from their comments.
my parents live abroad so i have no help with children or emotional support... my husband is not mentally fit so i look after kids... home admin, cleaning, cooking plus ensuring he does not mess things like finances etc. for last 13 yrs every mnth i have had to double check his book keeping and this is simple stuff... when it comes to kids i leave certain instructions to make life easy ... he does them once and forgets the next time... i am usually very patient.
kids are hard aswell as you parents will know... but i am lucky they are healthy and not very difficult... none the less are 1 and 3..
i work fulltime and do the nursery pick up and drop offs...
and yet here i am... no appreciation... no support and no respect and not even worth knowing.