Just needing a whinge....

[Flamesparrow]

Tired and feeling so low.

DS has german measles - he spent the first few days sleeping through it, but now he is miserable with it.

I have pulled a muscle in my back and it hurts to move too much.

DD's off preschool all week and is going stir crazy (we went to a friend's yesterday but it didn't seem to ease it).

I was backed up with housework and work work before this and its all even harder now because I don't even have the mornings to get things together.

We're all run down and need a decent meal (which I am too tired to prepare - have meat on the side to do a stew but I can't even face cutting it right now). Got all excited - checked finances and realised we had enough to manage a trip to the carvery - decent food, lots of veg... then remembered DS is contagious and we can't go.

It was the final straw and now I'm sat here sobbing because I can't go out for roast.

Everyone else manages to cope with stress and life hiccups without sinking into depression - why can't I?!?!?

DH is sick of me doing sod all round the house (he doesn't say it, but his mood lifts when I have done things), he's sick of me ranting at him, the children are sick of shouty horrible mummy.

I'm sick of me.

Oh, and to top it off I have realised I am drinking far too much wine the last few weeks

{{{hug}}}

{{hug}} btw, we don't all cope. why do you think there i mumsnet and chocolate?

Other people don't seem to have so many "i'm not coping" threads though

That's because we're all too cowardly to admit it. But, we do have those days, I promise.

have you seen the depressed section?? i can't cope when i'm run down either, if it's any consolation (probably not!) honestly, give me a few weeks and i'll start a thread on those lines x

I'm just feeling far too sorry for myself - people have it soo much harder than me.

FlameSparrow - every now and then I try the "but there are so many people on MN having a worse time" argument on myself. It doesn't really help, does it? If you are feeling down you are feeling down - it makes no difference how many problems other people have .

Can you plan your carvery visit for as soon as DS is no longer contagious - at least it would be something to hang on to?

You're right - it doesn't help at all.

Can try and plan carvery for next week... got no idea what I'm going to do for dinner tonight though. I can't seem to pull myself together enough to do anything let alone cut meat.

Do you DC like pasta? You could feed them early on pasta and whatever comes to hand (my DS likes tuna & sweetcorn best when we are cupboard raiding) and then send your DH out for chips for the two of you later?

Thankyou - I'll attack pasta

just embarrassingly crumpled on the house price thread

Flame - maybe you should consider moving to wales - you could get a decent mortgage for 700 a month

your family mean a lot to you but evidently thay are not really making you happy

maybe if you and dh felt you were moving forward instead of standing still even if only financially - this could lift you

Where abouts was he thinking?

I couldn't do it NAO - I am very very very close to my mum (we see each other everyday)... I ended up in deep depression when we moved just 20 mins away.

I'm not exaggerating about not surviving - I have been that low before and I don't think I would get through it again.

He wants to move back to his village - but his village has his family who treat him like he is worthless, criticise his every move when he is the good son. I have seen him around his dad - he turns into this squished little boy, not the lovely man he is.

The nappies are looking like our way out of all this, but obv its going to be a slow process. I can see the longterm projection etc, but he just sees the now (he's the kind of person who would want to sell x,y,z to pay off a bill for a month, whereas I am the type to adjust lots of little things so we can pay it every month iyswim).