I'm done

[3bearsandmummy]

I want to die, I won't do anything because I have 3 kids in bed...if I didn't I probably would. It hurts it's hard work, I just want to sleep and not wake up. I don't get the point anymore, so much hard work staying here every day for what? I'm tired. I'm tired of it all. But I'll get up tomorrow plaster that smile on and let everyone think I'm holding it all together. I just needed to get it out.

I'm so sorry you feel like this. Are you getting any RL support? Are you alone apart from the kids?

No one knows how I'm feeling. I've done a good job pretending for so long it's second nature! I do have good family and friends. I just cant tell them. Just had enough. I just don't like being here.

Ok. That's what needs to change. It's the illness that makes you feel you have had enough and don't want to be here. You need to seek RL help. Call GP tomorrow. Don't pretend.

Don't be afraid to tell your partner, family, friends how you are feeling. You don't have to be strong, plaster on a brave face. Tell someone how you feel and ask them to help you.

If you feel can't tell some close then could you talk to a GP? Or the Samaritans? They're amazing! And do, actually, are you.

I know, I really do. But no one will understand...there is no reason fir me to feel like this. And everyone will be thinking but she's been fine. I'll wake up tomorrow and put my make up on, no one will have a clue. I don't want them to know.

I lost my post. Sorry if this posts twice.
I have anxiety and depression. I have no reason to have these conditions. I just do. Like my asthma. I have no reason to have that. But I do.
I coped. I seemed fine. Until I wasn't. I wish I had recognised the signs earlier. For my sake, my DH and my poor bloody kids.
Please seek RL help. Call your GP. You deserve that smile to be a real one.