So... my family are shit; unsupportive, dismissive and aggressive. They don't "believe" in depression and are so embarrassed I'm on medication for it..or "your bloody drugs" they don't understand I can't make eye contact with them as I'm terrified of them; they don't understand my "twitches" when they are confrontational (I've managed to stop scratching until I bleed and now just fiddle with knuckles or stroke behind knees) and are very aggressive with their telling me to stop. I've made a bit of a mess of my life but am working and bringing my dd up brilliantly (if I can say so) but we have hardly any money and struggling to find somewhere to live... apparantely that makes me a huge fuck
Up. Massive back story but parents decisions led to us ultimately having nowhere to live and they now don't like "how it sounds" and what people think..that's all they care about..other peoples opinions of them! They have enabled my 4 brothers to buy their brand new houses (paid their deposits) so all my bros pay is mortgage... on a 4 bed house with ground source energy they pay less a month than I do rent on shitty 2bedroom flats! But I'm
The fuckup and embarrassment. I seriously wonder why I'm even here. I can't see a way out of it