Waiting till kids grow

[Farontothemaddingcrowd]

Has anyone ever felt like waiting till the kids grow and then ending it all? I don't know if I'll still feel like this in ten years when my ds is 18 but I do today. I don't want to be told to call the samaritans please as I feel ok. Just pondering stuff.

You should screen shot your last message and keep it for the next time you are low?

All the best to you

Yeah , me too.

The black puddles just join up, and I can't remember what it feels like not to feel so low.

Every single time.
Must write down, stick on wall.

Trying to remember what I can be grateful for today helps too.

Farontothemaddingcrowd so glad to hear the black's lifted for you today.

I'm really glad you feel better today. Still worrying that you get that low though. I think the screenshot is a great idea and still think RL help and support is in order.

I get it. Sometimes I feel trapped as I know now that I have a DD I can never kill myself. I couldn't do it to her.
I think for some of us these thoughts are our normal. That's not to say we wouldn't love to get better and feel okay more often, just that we have low expectations of how much better we can get.
Just keep plodding on. You've got this. Who knows what new treatments and coping statergies will be available in the future.

I know this post was a long time ago but reading it now. Just wanted to check in - how are you feeling now?

Hi @Mags1993 I am absolutely fine - thank you for thinking of me! I was in a horrible situation and quite isolated. I am now married and my children are doing well. Middle daughter has a place at Oxford. It’s been a long time since I felt so low and lonely.

How lovely ❤️
That gives hope to us all