I had my baby almost a year ago, straight after I had my baby I became instantly unhappy I lost all confidence I couldn't bond with my baby properly I struggled to breast feed and I just cried and panicked at everything I feel as if I was such a bad mum! I was lucky enough to had a partner to helped me through it. Anyway still to this day I'm still feeling awful since day one constant crying at everything I struggle to wake up I struggle to brush my teeth or even brush my hair. It's getting to the point where even eating I can't do it I feel as if everything is a chore. I just feel so alone. I do my best I give what little energy I have to my baby and make sure she's changed fed dresses bathed and entertained and then I feel exhausted like I've ran a marathon. I've been tempted to go to the doctors but I was judged and questioned as I was in care previously by a health visitor really put me off as I have always been judged by my past life when I'm completely different they judged me as I am young (21) on top of that I feel so looked down on which makes it even harder I know I may sounds stupid but I even feel defeated with that too. I feel like I don't know to do anymore. I've been like this for a year and I know I can't keep saying it's ok all the time or this isn't forever but it feels like it, it's not getting better it's getting worse. I feel stuck.