Ive just completely broken down, throwing up, screaming, crying, shaking. Ive scared the kids, i hate myself, Ive just reached my limit today.
Im being made to work all the time at work, even though I'm part time, my eldest is under Chams and I got told today by my DD's Dr, Im not spending enough time with her, I'm so tired, I collapse as soon as I sit down in the evening. My DD1 told her Dr she keeps getting thoughts about hurting my youngest. She is Not in education so is picking them up after school until i can get home from my 1 and a half hour commute, so she can't be left alone with the others, My ex p won't see her, only the other two and he's leaving them home alone at his flat, I worry all the time about all them, but I don't know what to do.
I'm vomiting almost every day from stress, this doesn't seem to faze the kids, but I've just scared them, I feel awful, my body and brain just can't take anymore.