I am aware I'm probably just moaning for the sake of it, but I feel really low tonight.
I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression mid-December and have been off work since January (basically I couldn't return after the Christmas/New Year holiday). I thought I was 'on the up' - I've been feeling a bit more positive lately, have been trying to come up with some 'plans', been working on my anxiety (I'm doing a course of CBT at the moment - I'm not sure it's helping all that much, but it's making me structure my anxiety exposure, even if they don't seem to want to tackle the depression?). I was looking to go back to work in about a month, basically when I'm getting out more reliably and everything doesn't feel like a total struggle.
Tonight, I just feel really low again. I feel right back at the beginning in terms of hating myself - I was having longer periods of time where I was more positive about 'me' - and feeling like I let people down constantly.
Is this normal, to have this sudden slide backwards? I'm panicking it's going to have an impact on my recovery and thus return to work - I've let them down enough already.