So low

[Whatabanana]

My mood just plummets every few days/weeks. I cant stop dwelling on all the negative things in my life, namely-
-my marriage (depressed husband who developed crush on someone at work)
And
-my complete inability to even imagine myself in a proper job
I can't even write it all down as my mood has dropped so low. I used to think it was hormonal but it doesn't seem to follow any particular cycle. Proper depression is constant isn't it? What the hell is this?!!

I feel so very lonely and panicky too. I know this mood won't be permanent but right now it feels permanent and that there is no escape. I don't feel like i ever grew up properly enough to be able to deal with adult life.
I am shy, introverted, indecisive, incompetent. I don't know how to better myself. I don't know how to survive.

I don't feel like I'll ever be good enough to do anything. I want to be able to support myself because i don't trust anyone anymore.

Time to see your GP..
Meds do work, once. you find the right one for you.
Having a depressed DH is very draining for you and doesn't help your situation.

Thank you xx
i feel better this morning......so up and down