Suffering at the moment

[ImNotCrazy2015]

Hi all, I don't post a lot more a lurker but thought I'd reach out to you for some supper. I'm bipolar and I'm a bad depressive episode at the moment where getting up on a morning is and accomplishment. I've got a gambling problem and caused my family no end of grief with it. They're being supportive but I don't deserve it.
I start counselling on Thursday, hopefully to get to the root cause of why I have to be addicted to something! Last habit I kicked was weed....( 5 months off now).
I'm waiting on an urgent psych referral as not due till next month so hopefully have some suggestions. My psoriasis has too flared up 😩
I've been signed off work until the end of may to try and get my head together I just don't know how
I'm going to do it.

well done for stopping smoking weed, thats a huge achievement and that in itself will likely have a positive effect on your mental health. It sounds like support services are coming on board soon. Keep setting little goals and putting one foot infront of the other.

Thanks for replying it means a lot.
Setting little goals helps I'm just struggling as I'm living in a messy flat right now with no energy to do anything about it x

Be kind to yourself a messy flats not the end of the world.

you're definitely right about small goals - only way to do it! for the messy flat, give yourself one small goal to do with that - you could clean the bathroom cupboard out, for example...(I highly recommend decluttering as therapy!)... then give yourself a pat on the back. One by one moving through things slowly, small bursts of energy, not trying to do everything at once which is always a recipe for disaster.

congrats on coming as far as you have...

I just hope I get to see my psych soon I can't go on feeling like this....I preferred my manic episode to this feeling....I just want to stop gambling so badly but it's been the hardest addiction I've ever had to combat.....there's no drug like it 😫....I just want to feel normal