Feeling like I'm not good enough

[sarebear]

I have thyroid disease and ME (chronic fatigue syndrome)
I had a difficult pregnancy, due to problems with chronic fatigue coupled with autoimmune thyroid disease. It was recommended that I be induced because of my health problems. I had every painkiller available, but became exhausted in the second stage of labour, possibly due to the CFS and my baby being on the large side and in a difficult position! I eventually needed assistance with ventouse and ended up with a second degree tear and couldn't walk properly for weeks. Took months for the tear to heal, twelve months later I still have stress incontinence and my CFS still plagues me. I love my baby so much, everyone says how happy he is, I'm still breastfeeding, but some days I feel like I'm not on top of things and then I feel like I'm letting my baby down. I think I just need reassurance.

SB, am bumping this up for you. Can't help much but there will be someone here later who can. Does sound like you need to explain all this to your GP, you do sound like you had and are still having an awful lot on your plate.

BTW, what are you doing up so early?

Sounds to me like you're doing a FANTASTIC job in difficult circumstances.

Most of us feel, at some time or another, that we're letting our children down. I guess we always will! But if you're baby is healthy, happy, and loved, then you're doing a great job!!

Look after yourself, and get all the support you can...you deserve it!

Thanks for your support. I have already seen my GP about these issues and spoken to my Health Visitor. I have spoken to a psychologist, who has advised me, after a GP referral, and I'm due to see her again in a few months. It's just the way I feel sometimes on a personal level, even though people tell me how well I'm doing, sometimes I convince myself that my baby needs me to be even better, otherwise I'll let him down in some way. CFS has a lot to do with it. Sometimes when I'm lifting my baby for example, my arms, my body feels so, so tired, and it's then that I get these negative thoughts. But, I will tackle it somehow. Having children is a wonderful blessing.

I did see this but didn't know what to say... I'm sorry I can't be any help.

{hug}

I don't think any mother ever feels she's good enough - so much we could be doing more or better. But you're the best mothr for your child and I'm sure you're doing a great job

Darling, you are the best, the very best, mother your child could have. The very very best. You love him and he loves you. You are not letting him down in any way. And I do think every mother feels like they are letting their kids down by not being good enough sometimes.

sarebear I send my love. Very few of us are on top of things - please try not to feel that you are letting your baby down. sending a hug x