This is the first time I've written on MumsNet.
I'm really worried and feeling like I'm a danger to myself.
I was referred to a mental health team recently and have been ignoring their calls thinking I'm a strong person and they will take my child away from me.
But today, I feel like my husband and baby would be better off if i wasn't around.
I can't articulate myself so forgive me.
I don't know what's happening.
I had my hormones tested at doctors and all ok so what's going on?
My husband has taken our daughter away today to give me some time to myself but i don't want to be alone yet don't want to see anyone.
I'm a mess and worried something dangerous is going to happen as I can't think straight.
I'd never ever hurt my child. She's all I have to live for. But I'm ashamed of myself.
I had a high flying job before being a mum and considering going back to work so I'm not alone with my thoughts. But, on the flip side, work could add to my stresses.
What's happening?
I don't believe in medication to mask problems but my life is crumbling around me.