Iv had depression all of my adult life I'm 29 with 2 kids and a partner that works away mon-fri I have anxiety, things got extremely bad just before xmas last year I pushed myself to go to docs to ask for help, iv always refused medication in the past but at that time I felt it was that or I was going to have a breakdown, I tried it for 10 days but felt nauseous and not myself so came off it, I know I didn't give it a chance, my partner doesn't get it he just thinks it me and my moods, I feel he doesn't help or support me at all and cos he is away most of the time I have to live like a single parent he constantly lets us down and chooses his job over us , I feel at rock bottom the last few days iv not left the house and last night got let down again , I feel I'm at the desperate stage again, I was so scared this morning but managed to get an app at gp but really struggling to get the motivation to go, iv had panic attacks in the waiting room and it always plays on my mind , help ? 😕