Constant feeling of dread?

[PigInMuck86]

Stupid question but i was chatting to a lady at prayer group and she said it wasn't normal to live in constant dread/anxiety. Thing is I've felt this my whole life. I'm just waiting for the next disaster/bad news or for people to realise what a faliure i am. I feel responsible for everything. Since having the dds everything has got worse. Dd1 nearly died at 4 months old and dd2 nearly died at birth and i live in constant fear of anything happening. But that was 8 and 7 fucking years ago so as my mother keeps saying i should be over it by now. Dd3 had a febrile convulsion in Feb and has a temp due to teething and im really scared and thats what i was asking for prayer for when the lady said feeling constantly anxious isn't normal. She said i should go to the GP. But surely they would just laugh at me? Worry is just part of life?

Bless you OP. I used to be a very fearful person, and felt the need to apologise for my own existence!
I feel much more free now. My self-esteem is still low, but I've kind of made my peace with my own lowliness! I still suffer anxiety, but not that all-consuming gripping fear.

I'm in a bit of a rush now, but I'll comment 'properly' later. I didn't want to ignore your post. Take care

Having some worries, some of the time is normal especially as a parent. But if these worries are all consuming and affecting your day to day life then seeing your GP sounds like a good idea. There are medications (often antidepressants) which can really help take the edge off anxiety, and something like cbt that challenges your way of thinking can help a lot too. I would also reccomend a books called 'Love is letting go of Fear) and 'Feel the fear and do it anyway'

I take medication for my anxiety, I only need to take it when I start to get anxious and panicky. I don't need to take it every day and it works almost straight away, it's called propranolol. Go and see your GP, you don't have to live like this. I also thought it was normal to constantly worry but it's not.

OP, much of my former panic & dread was caused by past trauma. I just wondered if you could have undiagnosed PTSD? If so, CBT could be very helpful.
Apologies though if not.
As you mentioned prayer, it's hopefully ok for me to say that I'll pray for you? I sincerely will.
Do take care