It's been a rough couple of weeks. I'm feeling suicidal and dissociative, obsessive and delusional. In a moment of clarity, managed to get an emergency GP appointment yesterday, and he's referred me to the Acute care team for assessment - i think its the acute care team. acute something assesment. I'm upset because I like to know, and I was a bit too out of it to ask. I know it's an urgent referral so I'll get a call within three days. This means i'm glued to my phone. I always have it on silent because the sound scares me so i wait for the visual call. I don't know what to expect though, will the assessment be at a hospital, will it be in the next few days or will i just get a call in the next few days.
I felt really worried about the time issue yesterday, because I wasn't sure i'd be here today. I'm not sure i'll be here tomorrow, i'm taking it all in 5 minute chunks. I asked for advice about how to get through the night, and he said I should go out with friends. I'm alone though.
I was surprised he didn't talk about antidepressants or talking therapies, which is normally what happens when I speak to GPs. You go, tell them how weird your perception of the world is and then you go with a prescription and offered a group talk on how to handle stress. I'm happy to be referred, someone has noticed that i'm really not ok.
Does anyone know what will happen now?