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[horseshoe]

I cant even bear to write and dont really know what to say anyway!
I hate feeling sorry for myself and feel guilty which just adds to the pain. If it wasn't for my kids I would disappear. Cant find the energy to look after them or myself.

I keep trying to tell myself to get a life but right now I wouldn't even know where to start. It's pathetic and I feel so stupid.

Are you on AD's? Have you been to the GP?

Oh poppet. Even without knowing you, I can promise you that you are absolutely NOT pathetic or stupid for feeling this way; countless of us have felt/are feeling the same.

Do talk to us if you feel you can and we will try to help in any way we can. As VVV says, please also think about seeing your GP and try to look after yourself as well as you clearly look after your kids. What would you do/recommend if, in x years time, one of your kids was in this situation?

Always here to help.

Thanks guys,

Well I literally dragged myself out of the house today...albeit scraggy with greasy hair but I feel better for doing so. Not by much but at least I made an effort with my day. DD1 drew a picture of me and her daddy (who I have seperated from) in nursery. She drew him big and red and me little and yellow. I asked her why she chose yellow and she said cause I was her sunshine.

So glad yesterday got better for you. Your daughter sounds adorable & clearly adores you. Keep smiling