Hi i finally bit the bullet after 9 years of feeling like numb to the world and went to the drs. They put me on sertraline and have said i need to go to cbt. All i have read about it though seems to be to do with anxiety. Im a shy person but never got anxious about things if that makes sense. I happily go out and do stuff without thinking about it. I am socially awkward but have always been that way.
I have just been feeling total detached from the world. Like when i ride my motorbike and someone nearly hits me i dont react normally its like im just watching it on tv if that happened years ago i would have had adrenaline and fear but not now. I never cry or get really happy. (Everyone thinks im really happy) the only emotion i do get is angry.
Sorry that turned into a ramble. I dont have anyone in rl to talk to dp thinks if i feel anything but happy i want to leave him and the rest of my family are of the pull yourself together mh isnt real type.