Does anyone have PMDD? I need someone to talk to.

[lifeissweet]

So...I have shaky mental health at the best of times. I have had depression on and off all of my adult life.

I finally came off the meds last year and have been doing ok.

Apart from one thing.

The week before my period starts I get unbelievably low and sometimes almost suicidal. I am plunged back into feeling like I did in the worst days of my depression. I can't get out of bed. I cry and cry and can't function.

I am at home today when I should be at work. I had to call in sick - and I hate doing that - I just can't manage it today. I feel like I'm in a pit and can't see any light.

And I know rationally that I'm absolutely fine. In a few days, the bleeding will start and I will feel 100% better, but I can't rationalise myself out of this hole right now and it starts a spiral because I hate myself for not getting a grip and pushing through.

This is actually the first time I've called in sick because of this. I can usually cope. But this month I am a complete mess.

What the fuck is wrong with me?!

Hormone fluctuations have a lot to answer for. Have you spoken to your GP? They should have some useful suggestions and advice, and sound like you might need some support?

This video popped up on my Facebook feed a few weeks ago, not sure how true it all is but did make me think about how I feel (tired, grumpy, angry) in the few days before my period: www.self.com/story/this-video-shows-your-entire-menstrual-cycle-in-2-minutes

Hope you're feeling a bit better today?

life I hope you got some help. I’ve had a horrid 8 months and it’s only just dawned on me that it’s hormonal. I could have written your exact post.

My periods are really very irregular and I often have them much more frequently than once a month 😱😱 so I’ve only just worked out that the really awful black moods are almost always followed by brief bleeding.

I actually feel really quite relieved but also terrified that I know it’s going to keep happening. I bled solidly through 3 pregnancies, so my hormones have always been all over the place but the last 8 months or so have been horrendous. I have a coil and it only works well for the first year. I’ve had this one about 2 years so the moods correspond with the increase in frequency in bleeding which is much more regular now. I need to speak to my GO but I’m sure he’ll be 🤔 did you read this on the internet?

But honestly, it’s a massive lightbulb. I’ve been genuinely worried about my state of mind.

Anyway, if you’re still around, I hope you got some help

OP if you are stil reading, if you use Facebook there are a couple of really active PMDD support groups if you search.

I have it and it's worse some months than others
The more I exersize the better

yes, maybe not to your level, but I know that’s where I’m headed if it doesn’t improve. Never has any pms or anything but the last 4 years it’s creeping up on me. Ive seen the GP twice but they weren’t that helpful. I probably should go back. I’m trying evening primrose oil and B6 like the GP said. But that’s not really helping (unless I’d be even worse without it.... that’s not a good thought!) exercise helps when I’m angry and tense but doesn’t help with this

They put me on Sertraline which really helped but I couldn't cry or orgasm and I felt it wasn't worth it.
I didn't like living on such a narrow emotional spectrum.