PND/Depression. Feeling alone and unhappy

[midnightswirls]

Wow I don't know where to start. So I'm currently in a women's refuge and I've now got a place to go to but I've got to wait a month. I've been here 6 months now. I've also recently realised my mum is a toxic abusive parent and she's currently not talking to me because I finally said no to her. I feel so lonely, I can't even go into the communal lounge with the other ladies as I have an 8 month on LB. I couldn't leave him even with the monitor on I wouldn't dare. So I feel very Isolated in here. I always had a feeling I had/have PND too. I love my LB to pieces but find it so hard! The first few months were a blur, he had a milk allergy, silent reflux. He was rushed to hospital twice when he was 4 months. I think everything has caught up with me. I cry most days, I feel sad, hopeless, I feel like there should be more to life. I feel like I don't have many friends. I just don't know what to do anymore. I want to enjoy life like I used to.

Hey Swirls, just wanted to say hang on in there. Have you spoken to your HV or GP about how you feel? You've been through a terrible time, but focus on the positive - a new home in 4 weeks! Just take it one day at a time, get out as much as you can to playgroups, the park, etc. You sound like a brilliant mum. Sending you much love

I last spoke to my gp before I came into the refuge. I said I didn't want to try medication but try counselling first. I've had some sessions but can't get anyone to look after my LB now as my mum isn't speaking to me. It is a positive as the refuge is making me feel isolated. Especially since the ladies here seem close. I want to take my LB to groups but I get so anxious and feel ĺike an outsider. I guess I need to go for my LB sake. Thank you x