Sorry, do you mind if I just come and moan on here, not expecting an responses, just want to rant and can't rant to ds so thought I'd type how I feel instead.
Really had enough this week!!!
Here's my 'normal' list of why I feel low:
Finances not good, I'm a childminder a lost a full time mindee recently so sudden drop in income not helping!
Moved house end of last year and still a tip, loads to do!
Mountain of paperwork seems never ending
Can't keep on top of family housework (i.e. washing and rooms not used for childminding)
Issues with ds's behaviour
Dh picking at me all the time
Only had 1 proper holiday in 10 yrs and desperate to get away
Feel lonely quite a bit as family no longer around
Don't get to speak to many adults that often due to my work
And then this week on top of the other stuff....
Dad been in hospital, had op and waiting for test results, hoping to god not cancer
Worried about mum as she's showing signs of cracking due to nan with dementia living with them and now dad ill
Ds been poorly
New tiny baby mindee (started at 7 weeks) crying when not held all the time
Dh having bad time at work and taking out on us
2 x cars had problems causing dh to be more stressed
Dh has breakdown on Thurs night (see other thread)
I feel overwhelmed by everything but can't say as need to be strong for dh
And now sister just calls and asks what I'm doing tonight. I say I'm sitting down with dh to discuss our meeting with Dr tomorrow as important, she sounds as though been crying, I ask if she's ok but just saying 'it's ok, it's ok' - I know it's not but can't help and now feel bad about not being available tonight (she lives nearly 2 hrs drive away).
Sorry, feel better now, just felt like screaming but calmed down!