Every month, every single month there is a problem with my repeat prescription. I'm considering saying fuck it then, not bothering going back. When did the NHS get so shit, god that's unfair, i know they're doing their best.
Every time, my prescription is lost or at the wrong surgery or not ready or I have to speak to a doctor - and not any doctor, my doctor, who I've never even met, not even convinced he exists. This time the receptionist gave me a lecture on the phone, health is important she said, well I can't just answer the phone when I'm at work, work is important too, it's all I have.
Now been without my medication for over a week. I feel hopeless, I feel like doing terrible things and I know once I get the damn prescription I'll feel possibly even worse because it takes a while to feel better.
Counselling was a fucking nightmare as well. Stressed me out getting there, felt like they had no idea what I was talking about, and each time I go back there;s another traumatic experience to talk about so we never get to the root. So I gave up for a few weeks and they closed my case.
I know, I know, call them tomorrow. I'll try not do anything silly til then. Just why can't it be easier. Dr only asks me what medication I want, doesn't ask how I am so why bother, why not just do it all online and forget it.