Psychosis

[hayleyB79]

Hi I'm new to mumsnet and am posting my for the first time. I am currently experiencing my second episode of psychosis, even tho I don't believe I'm I'll at the moment but that's the thing u wouldn't if your I'll. Just wondering if anyone else has had experience of this and if its something I can expect to live with for thee rest of my life or whether it is possible to experience it a couple of times then never again?

Coming on here might help, it has for me in the past. There is always someone about to chat too.

That's a good idea. If I'm feeling particularly scared I'm sure there'll be people on here to help get me through it.

Its good you caught it early this time hayley, we caught DHs earlier this time but not early enough, we need to work on that.

butterflies that sounds really scary for both of you, thankfully DHs not been violent with me, but was threatening during his most recent episode, which is taking a lot of getting over for both of us. He also had an abusive childhood apparently its very common with psychosis

Did your DH hallucinate whilst he had low grade psychosis for those 10 years or is that a more recent thing?

Yes, he did, but he didnt and doesnt recognise it as hearing voices, he always had a logical explaination for who had said things, neighbours, work collegues, passers by. The voices are generally abusive, which led to being unable to hold down jobs, and frequent house moves due to fall outs with neighbours. His explainations were always so plausible it took me years to work out what was going on, it wasn't till he was really poorly and obviously reacting when no one had said anythingvthat it clicked into place for me. Before then he just said that I was deaf if I hadn't heard things, or that they only did it when I wasn't there.

That must have been so tough for both of you. I don't hear voices or see things that aren't there but I always have an explanation why certain people are in certain places at that time and like you last time round people had no reason not to believe me but were on it straight away this time.

NoLonger is there some element of paranoia involved?

It sounds incredibly tough. I think living with mental illness no matter who has it is hard.

Hope you've had a good nights sleep hayley.

Is anyone around? Feeling very anxious, need talking down.

What's up, how bad are you?

I'm OK on phone to my sister thanks

Just remember it's temporary lovely, as is most stuff

How's your day been Hayley? Have you been feeling on edge all day or just recently? I'm starting tea super early because I was about to reach for empty carbs so I need to keep my hands busy! Got Bruno Mars playing on the tv to distract me too. Oh.. now it's a different band trying to sound all cool and moody. Does music help you or is it too stimulating? X

Thanks for your support. I tried to stay alone at home for first time in weeks just for an hour after my friend left but anxiety got the better of me. Nobody was answering the phone but finally got through to my sister. Obviously too soon. I should try listening to music, I loved to years ago so should dig out some old CDs.

Hi Hayley, how are you doing? Are you having a day at home today?

unborn yes DH gets paranoid delusions too, its really a crap illness thats stolen so many opportunities from him. Watching him start from scratch with his career over and over has been hard, but feeling really positive right now as he's just come home glowing after being encouraged to join a training programme at work.

Making a phone call was a good choice, well done for testing the waters by yourself! That was courageous.
It's raining here so it's actually nice and cosy indoors. God, you've reminded me I have so many CDs I should really sort through them and give some to the charity shop, they are just sat there unused some of them have some sentimental value though!
Sometimes songs can really take you to another place, might be useful if you're getting anxious or lost in thought.

I was out this morning with my care coordinator. She wanted to take me to a local centre to find activities to fill my time rather than just going to other peoples houses so was feeling quite positive after that. My friend came round for the afternoon and I said I'd try stay by myself for an hour but 15 minutes into it I felt too panicky. Really deflated now that I couldn't do it without calling someone.

On the positive side you managed 15 mins on your own and then managed with only having someone on the phone rather than there in person. So thats progress. What activities are you planning on doing?

You managed 15 minutes though, so it's an improvement. Baby steps is probably the best way to go.

What activities are there? You might meet some people who understand what your going through.

I'm still friends with the people I was in hospital with and I married one so my wedding was like a reunion party.

Anxious it sounds tough but he's got you looking out for him. It's half the battle sometimes.

You're right I should look on it as progress because I did the 15 minutes then still stayed alone for the rest of the hour. The activities are mainly exercise so going to start boxercise and piloexercise along with the zumba I started last week. Its all on days and at times my sons at nursery and a lot cheaper than the local leisure centre. There's also a choir but not too sure on that one yet.

Sounds good :-) exercise is always good for MH too.

hayley last time I was ill my cpn managed to get extra funding for DD to do an extra day at nursery. Could be an option if you ever feel like you need it.

My care coordinator has mentioned it to me before but I tend to be more relaxed when he's not at nursery, maybe because i don't have to do the journey to take him there and back.

When do too many coincidences become a reality?

What do you mean hayley?