what next?

[dontbesillyhenry]

Had depression since 16, now 36. Feel like depression is getting worse, starting to effect functioning. Small things overwhelming, find things like housework, cooking a meal, self care beyond my capability at times. Surprisingly though I function very well at work and feel in control and useful.
Ive had ten sessions of cbt at IAPT, a few months back upped my citalopram after being changed from flouxetine. I feel like my only joy is when overeating and spending money. Please help im desperate, is there any more help out there without it affecting my job for instance will i have to have meetings with occy health etc? is there anything else that can be done?

Hi there just wanted to give you a huge hug. Funnily enough I feel the same at work and though I'm more anxiety than depression I function fine when working. I'm waiting for cbt but no meds. Have you had counselling? How is your support network?

I would never ask parents etc for help- they act too begrudging.
Cant talk to hubby as he thinks depression is mind over matter. I feel awkward at counselling/therapy as I dont really like to discuss myself, feels self indulgent and like I should just be grateful

Could much of how you feel be down to the depression? Have you tried asking your parents but also tell them exactly why? I don't know about depression as I said but it sounds to me like you need to feel you're worth the time you would spend on yourself in counselling? What else do you do just for you? Swimming, yoga, reading a good book, having a massage or another holistic type therapy? I would also direct hubby to a good website so he can have his eyes opened a little about depression.

Agree with joto you need to learn to love yourself and treat yourself well. Could you see councelling as a start to this, a gift to yourself of the time and space to heal yourself.

I also wanted to say don't see OH as a bad thing I've had huge support, councelling and psychology input provided by mine and DHs arranged for him to have time for his CPN meetings during work time.