Proper big crush on therapist

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Just as it says really. Yes I can rationalise it - he's the only person who listens to me, he is kind and non judgmental and affirmative and I am clearly projecting all kinds of shit onto him; poor bastard. I also know that I would never want anything to happen between us and that this is just a fantasy. Which I have been enjoying, in my own little way. But I've noticed that I'm thinking these thoughts more and more and they are making me uncomfortable. How do I stop?

I don't know if the length of therapy dictated it or not. I just felt like I clicked with him.

It wasn't really much a sexual thing for me and I didn't really fantasise about him. I knew that if anything sexual had developed I would have hated him for taking advantage of me so I realistically didn't want him to fancy me back.

It's just a weird relationship, but the awful feeling of having this terrible secret felt so much better once it was out in the open.

I haven't actually mentioned to my therapist that I don't feel like that any more, I wonder if I should but it felt like such a non event anyway that I don't really feel the need to bring it up again.

I've always tended to email or text my therapist when I have something awkward to tell him and that made it easier as he could prepare a response for when we met at our next session.

For me, personally, therapy was better once that was out of the way.

It meant that I could just focus on my car crash of a life, instead of distracting myself from it by pretending I only went to therapy to see him.