Im a new mum daughter is 15 months now. My son is 14 so I had a few years of 'freedom' and independence before having her so I'm still adjusting.
This year has been very difficult because of a few major life events happening one after another.
Apart from having a new baby, we also moved twice in 6 months and even though we are in a nice area and a bigger place, I terribly miss my old town, neighbours and friends.
I'm going to baby groups and have met a few people but I'm feeling very resistant to 'make new friends ' at my age (39) . I feel I have enough friends and it's a full time job maintaining those I don't want to get any new ones.
But I know I have to.
Apart from the move my sister has been diagnosed with cancer this year and is currently going through chemotherapy, and that affected me very badly. I worry about her a lot and feel helpless.
On top of everything I lost my job and financial independence, after my maternity leave and now my partner has to work Saturdays to keep us afloat. I feel I lost my purpose.
So all together, new baby, move, cancer in family, no income, isolation....about 2 months ago I started developing physical symptoms which came from anxiety I think.
I had terrible back ache, muscle ache, general aches and pains, which went on for weeks .
My appetite has dropped, my sex drive is non existent and I have developed hypochondria (I feel something is seriously wrong with me, predominantly that I have or will get cancer like my sister) .
I went to physio for my back and he said my muscles are so tight and tense that my whole back feels like pressing bone .
I also referred myself for CBT which I'm still waiting for.
I guess what I want to ask is...do I need to go on medication?
What are your experiences?
Normally I'm an optimistic ,happy together person so part of me feels that maybe I should just ride it out til I 'snap out of it' , but I'm in such a dark place that I struggle to find joy in anything right now.
Any advice please 