I have had the weirdest week of my life, which has culminated in me feeling suicidal all day, its daft I know but I hoped if I SH it would kick my mood into touch. But I'm back down again just an hour after. I have some this in the past and felt better. But not tonight.
Not to drip feed, I have been unwell with a cold and as my mobility aid broke, I have been in the house more than usual, but otherwise nothing obvious has happened. I have been really exhausted and struggled all week to wake up, its like I've been sedated, my mind is saying wake up but my body won't react. I feel awful because I havebhadbthe kids off school all week, pretending they were I'll, when really I just couldn't wake up. I hoped it was to do with the cold, but today I woke up at 3pm!!! So so down. I got on the scales and should have been ecstatic I am still losing weight, but no this did nothing. Then I spent the day really not hungry and realised that no havent had an appetite all week, cold? Or depression?
I have a bag of emotional shit that needs dealing with and am on a waiting list for CBT, but nothing knew.
Now of course I can't bleeding sleep!