I'm recovering from PTSD. I was in still quite a bad way 3 weeks ago and couldn't cope with even the idea of starting back at work. I had eye movement integration therapy, which was amazing and resolved all my PTSD symptoms straight away. Wow I thought I'm better lets get back to normal. I started a phased return to work last week and managed 5 short days or reduced duties. I found last week tiring but otherwise ok. I'm finding this week harder both yesterday and today I've ended up shaky and muddled at times. I have been trying to do more mentally demanding work this week, and have realised I'm probably not ready for this yet.
I'm feeling so friustrated and the journey back to full duties seems very long at the moment. I keep reminding myself that only a couple of months ago I couldn't even manage to make a cup of tea because my concentration was so bad. Just writing this down I can see how far I've come. Thankfully the anxiety, pannic attacks and flashbacks have not returned, but I am realising that my brain and body have not yet recovered.
I suppose I need to compare it to having major surgery. The problem may have been removed, but the recovery is going to be a long process and I'm not as strong as I want to be yet.