Title says it all really. I'm really struggling and know I need to ask for help but am scared in case it triggers social services. I missed a doctor appointment in December, just couldn't leave the house, I did ask if dr could call or just send a prescription to local chemist. Didn't happen so am now to scared to ring them, so no ads and spiralling. Boilers broken so no hot water again to scared to call or email landlord.
I know a lady who would be happy to come round for a cup of tea and a chat and if I told her she would make the calls and probably be able to suggest and access any other help and support I need, but the house is a tip, the Xmas tree is half dismantled, it's cluttered and dusty, my bedroom is a dumping ground and have clean clothes either on the stairs or a chair in the living room. I do mean everyday to make a start but after I've got my son to school in the morning I just freak out and end up hiding in bed in order to have the energy to deal with him after school. The clothes get washed, he has a wash in front of the fire everyday and I do my best to cook, some nights my son does it.
I know if I can get one thing sorted I'm sure the others will follow ie get ads and fear should subside, get the boiler fixed and the house won't be so cold so putting clothes away, washing up everyday will be easier, but and the big but is if I ask this lady for help will she get Social services involved. The rational part of me says I have to do this but if I loose my son I would lose my reason for living.
Please tell me I'm being stupid