So I have just finished a year's worth of uni work in 3 months due to the way I (unwittingly) chose my modules. Unbelievable pressure, not seeing my toddlers (oh has been taking over childcare), house a mess, not had time to put make up on, eating rubbish etc.
I was raped 14 years ago (well i now recognise it as that) and have never even given this a second thought until the past few weeks. I wake up at night crying about it, have been obsessively searching for the guy even though I only recall part of his name. I can't sleep so spend most days exhausted. Crying all the time. Covered in spots.
I was also burgled 3 days ago and my car stolen so feeling scared in my own home, anxious, jumpy.
I plucked up the courage to go to the doctors today and she said that she thinks it's the implant that I had put in 4 months ago. Yet she convinced me to see how I get on with it over the next month. She also gave me a leaflet for talking therapies but they have no appointments for initial phone assessments until the 7th Feb. She said because I'm not suicidal, she doesn't think it's depression or anxiety. I also didn't cry during the appointment, I saved it for when I got home. What now? I can't continue like this. Should I ring sexual health to get the implant removed? Is it even definitely down to that?
Never reqlly had mental health issues before. I just know that I can't continue like this.