I've suffered with depression and severe anxiety since puberty. I've been on and off AD's since I finally had the courage at 21 to see my GP about it. I'm now 34.
I'm currently on Paroxetine and as my DH and I would like to try for another baby I'm coming off the medication by slowly lowering the dose.
But I've always had trouble when coming off any ADs - woozy head, nausea, terrible mood swings and irritability, can't fall asleep then when i finally do i have extreme vivid nightmares and struggle to wake up, when i do wake im literally dripping wet with sweat, i have a permanent tight knot in my stomach, fast breathing, bad anxiety returning. This is happening already just by going from 20mg - 15mg over just the last 5 days. The docs always say my symptoms are not 'withdrawal' and are simply in my head, I'm just having panic attacks.
I'm wobbling already and wondering if I'll ever be 'normal' enough to have another child. Thinking I should just accept I have my onew DS and stay on the ADs.
I don't know what I expect to achieve from this post - I guess I just hope someone else will understand and hold my hand for a bit 