Can't get to see the GP until Tuesday though - which is just as well really because it's half term here and I don't want to take DS with me.
I'm sure he'll give me anti-depressants - I can't wait actually. I don't know how I'm going to cope until the tablets start working. I'm not suicidal but last night I really thought about it. I never ever want to feel like that again and I'm really scared.
I'm so ashamed. I phoned the samaritans last night and it didn't go very well. Felt more ashamed and lonely afterwards.
I've had depression before but not like this.