Hi,
I have been anxious and depressed on and off for as long as I can remember, including a couple of months off work a few years ago. I am on fluxoteine for the second time - the first time it worked well after a time but this time I don't think it is having any effect.
Much of my anxiety is centred around my 16 yr old dd who has had lots of struggles with her own mental health, periods out of school, self harm, thoughts of running away and most recently a (small) overdose. I simply cannot detach form her and panic and worry constantly. But in the last year we have also had financial difficulties, my uncle has terminal cancer, I had procedures done to investigate potential uterine cancer which fortunately was a false alarm, my daughter's boyfriend committed suicide, my husband was violently mugged and experienced PTSD, the list goes on.
Today I feel worse than ever. Was physically sick this morning, went to drop dd at rail station and had a full blown panic attack and couldn't remember where the station was. I can't eat, I barely sleep because I wake up every half hour in panic. When I do sleep I have awful nightmares, last night I was killing the children by stamping on their spines, or I sometimes think my husband is a monster and attack him in my sleep and wake up screaming. When I drive to work I just feel like driving the car off the road so I can get some respite from his hell.
Please help me.