I have been in my current workplace for some time and it's not always been plain sailing but mostly ok.
I'm involved a large scale project intended to develop, change and improve many levels of practice but when I try to come back with messages they aren't valued and any suggestions are treated with absolute derision. I am expected to contribute to this project so I feel useless in work and at meetings. Much of it involves research which is encouraged by new standards for the profession and by experts but which is treated with derision. Other organisations are innovating and working together. I feel I am totally isolated. Other staff feel similar but there is such a strong hierarchy it cannot be challenged. I've been receiving emails first thing in the morning (with, ironically, other research) undermining the project I am part of.
Another bone of contention is an outside commercial advisory company. I have to deal with an ex associate and an organisation I have serious issues with morally (their making money from the research of others, making huge amounts of money from a struggling public sector, their making minute changes to systems and charging the earth to update). I am often undermined in front of this person.
I've just a bereavement in the family and feel I can't ask for the funeral off, I have appointments for my child who has a serious, progressive incurable illness that I feel I shouldn't ask attend.
My work life balance is completely shot. I live with family members I support in a significant way financially who are often awkward. Even my pets I look at with just an overwhelming sense of annoyance at their level of need rather than care and enjoyment.
I realise this could all be down to my perception rather than the fault of others. I have just had an awful year, a termination at the beginning and miscarriage at the end. I also feel that if I were to be diagnosed with some sort of depression it would not be private and would be treated as a weakness and deficiency on my part.