I've been seeing my therapist weekly (unresolved childhood stuff) for coming up 2 yrs. She is great, she has helped me immensely but these last few months have been ridiculous.
I cannot stop thinking about her. Any resting moment that I'm not tied up in work or with DH, it is all about her. When I'll next see her, what we'll talk about, how she leaves me feeling, how I wish I could stay there with her forever. Tbh sometimes I cannot concentrate on my job because I'm thinking about her.
I know this is normal and I know why it happens but it is just so fucking hard. She's even taking over my dreams where I get hugs and the kind of closeness that can never really happen.
I told her these things last week, it was fine but if anything my feelings are now stronger mixed in with anger because in my sensitivity I latched onto something that I didn't clarify at the time and I haven't been able to get that out my head either.
I'm so confused right now, there are certain aspects of her personality that piss me off and we are completely different people but this desire is taking over my life. In my dreams I've hurt myself because if it. I'm just scared, I don't know what to do. I want to run away.