I've been on them for years. Changed after a crisis this time last year to venlafaxine and mirtazapine both at high doses. But I had another crisis in summer, and now I seem to be going downhill again. So, I'm either getting unwell, or the drugs are making me unwell, or I just can't deal with general life. I never used to have so many bad patches, or so severely. Has anyone else had this issue? I know that it would be daft not to take medication but it is getting difficult to take it IYSWIM as I'm finding life difficult and feel like they are making it worse. I just keep getting doses increased and I feel better for a few weeks and then it all starts slowly unravelling again. I feel like I'm an alien and only I can see life for how it really is. Maybe it's the drugs?