To ask if it ever gets better?

[Depressionisabitch]

All my life I have suffered depression but I'm so low this time.

I'm not going to do anything stupid, Iv done all the right stuff - sought help and medication etc but I feel so absolutely hopeless

Is there ever a happily ever after from this hell?

Yes. It can and it will get better. To paraphrase Stephen Fry - and to quote something that has given me great comfort in such times - depression is like a dark cloud, and like a cloud it will pass.
I know it feels like it's a deep dark hole but it won't always be this way. Are you practicing self care? Eating well, looking after yourself? Do you have any real life support?

Please don't give up - take some time to care for yourself - life will be waiting for you when you are ready :) xxx

💐 Horrible feeling x

Might be best to also post in the mental health section on here. Lots of traffic there and support too ive found.
I always get down this time of year.
I hope things look up a bit soon. It does get better, but its not always easy.
Take care

I don't have enough. I'm petrified I'm ruining my child. I have no career, my marriage is broken and despite everything we've tried we just aren't going to make it. I was desperate for another baby but there's a whole backstory of why that won't happen and I wouldn't be able to adopt. I feel like I should give my son up but it would kill me and I certainly didn't have a better life for going into care so I'm trying to fight this for him but I'm so frightened and unhappy

I am so sorry. Depression is truly awful and people do not understand unless they have experienced it or have been close to someone who has.

I have had depression for 30 years - no medication. I just ride it out everyday.

OP, all things pass and this bad time will too, big hugs to you. You love your son, thats what matters most, and no one else will ever be able yo love him the way you do.

Do you take medication? Do you have therapy?

I have bipolar and medication and therapy have changed my life: in fact I'd say they've saved my life.

I know I'll be on medication for the rest of my days but it's so very worth it....and I'm no more ashamed of being on meds than I would be if I took them for diabetes or heart disease.

Yep medication and had plenty of various types of therapy plus trying another kind now

I think it's the meds actually making me so low this time

I'm lucky that the second type I tried worked for me. Citalopram didn't work, but Venlafaxine has been a godsend at its highest dose.

I know when I'm down I try to take care of myself like I would an ill child...lots of self care, try to be kind to yourself and try to remember all the times you've come out of the other side before

Iv tried other medications I know it's just me that's screwed up I can't see a place in the future where I'm happy. My poor DS. I took him to nursery then got straight back in bed and I don't want to get out to go get him. If I knew I could be peaceful once dead I would just end things but I can't do that to DS or DH who'd blame himself and others. The pain is so overwhelming today

Isabitch

Please don't worry that you can't see the sun on a bright day. It is depression talking not you. Yes you are a bit screwed up at the moment, but you have not screwed up any more than someone who develops a thyroid problem.

It know it sounds trite, but it really can and does get better. I know because I have felt awful and didn't believe life was worth living.. But today I feel great, (apart from my migraine).

All you really have to do today is sleep until you collect DS from nursery. (Oh and read this which may be a tad difficult if you are asleep).