I have always thought that I had never been sexually abused.
I was physically assaulted by a family member for some years. I have had some counselling for this, which has now finished.
Over the last couple of weeks, because of the counselling, I have been thinking about my memories of violence.
Now I have quite a clear and distinct memory of a sexual assault by the same pepetrator. But I do not know whether or not to believe it as the truth. I was always aware he had been physically violent, but this is new information to me.
I'm not sure what I'm asking, really. My feelings about this memory are..numb..there's nothing attached to them. I wonder if it's a real memory that I have detached my emotions from (I have form for doing this) or if it is not real.
Does anyone have any experience of this? Should I go back to counselling? I am worried that my mind has made this up as a reason to put me back into counselling or something, because I felt safe there. I am so confused..