no point

[brazilnuts]

At the risk of coming across as a sad lonely attention seeking muppet,I have realised that there is absolutlely no point in me carrying on anymore but I'm not brave enough to go.I read so many posts,happy/sad/funny/weird/and utterly earth shattering ones and all the time I'm thinking why don't I ever have anything interesting or funny to say, I never used to be like this.I dont think this post makes sense either

oh brazilnuts! what's up? (love attenion seeking muppet!)

do you mean just in terms of posting on mumsnet? I am sure many of us feel like that - I know I have a complex about being a boring cow! sometimes a kind word at the right time means a lot to people...

I'm just so sad all of the time ,everything in my life has gone wrong,my husband couldn't careless,my son has HFA and certainly doesn't need me my baby died from cot death and I had a miscarrige in november.I have to work 7 days a week to keep my son in a private school.Actually reading all that no wonder no one wants to talk to me, but thanks you 2 for repyling.

Oh dear,I hope you mean you do not want to carry on solely in terms of mn,not in a general "wanting to end it all"sense.If it is any consolation I think that the majority of my posts are pretty tedious.Many hugs Wrinkly

no, I don't really mind if people don't reply to my post,in RL you dont get on with everyone and some you purposely avoid, its human nature to chat with people you feel most at ease with

how old is your son bn?

7 He will be 8 in April

Sorry my previous post was written prior to you posting again,but after you had posted.It sounds as if you have had an absolutely terrible time and I am not suprised that you are feeling like this.

Is there any way you could take some compassionate leave from work?

I would suggest that you got in touch with your GP if you are really feeling this low.Have you had any support from organisations such as CRUSE,or SANDS?

I am really sorry you are having such an awful time but you sound like a very strong person to have coped with all this so far,hon.

no wonder you feel rough, you have had a tough time of it,and working long hours is tough, but I guess you feel you have no alternative, so no point me telling you to reduce hours...

of course your son needs you bn, please take care

I felt depressed when I had my first and didn't get help i felt like just walking off into the night curling up in a ditch and going to sleep forever My husband nealy left me as I wouldn't get help i was so scared they'd take my baby away cos i was such a dreadful mother/human being and was convinced everyone would be better off without me. My doctor told me i had Post natal depression - i went to see him about a completely unrelated thing but he took one look at me and diagnosed me straight away - it saved my life. Your family love you and need you, get help from your gp or call meetamum or your health visitor but believe me do it now don't wait as long as i did being miserable, life can be nice again you just need to ask for help please don't wait.

Keep posting here brazilnuts, and see if you can get some talking therapy though your doc in rl, you're dealing with such a lot and just because your dh is useless at the moment doesnt mean you have to go without practical and caring support.