Hi all, I'm desperately looking for some advice . For the past few weeks my heart has been racing mostly during the night and I can't sleep. The last week it's been happening during the day, but today I've had it since yesterday evening. If I went to the dr is there anything they can give me to relax it? My mind is racing , and I'm spending hours during the night thinking through some really random things from the past and convincing myself of various outcomes.
Background - I've had various amounts of anxiety as long as I can remember. I went to see the dr about ten years ago and was prescribed an anti depressant and some cbt. The anti depressants made me feel drunk and as I had a young DC I knocked them off,and the cbt was pretty useless. I've managed ever since just keeping the thoughts inside and trying to carry on as normal on the outside.
I have another DC (3) and a lovely dh ,a semi stressful part time job which is flexible and I enjoy, my perfect home and family support. I have an elderly relative who I help care for and it's breaking my heart how poorly she is. My older ds is not having a great time at school and I feel a lot of guilt about his early years and how low I felt. I don't feel depressed now But the last month this anxiety is paralysing me.
It's ruining the lovely life I should be leading
I feel like a horrible person and a rubbish mum.
Is there anything I can do to help?
Thank you for reading