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So worried...

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scared7778 · 10/10/2016 10:03

NC for the purposes of this post. I'm in a real state, basically I'm worrying myself sick that I've accidentally done something wrong. I have extreme anxiety around the police being in trouble and it affecting my children. This particular worry is linked to something I've seen online in search results when I searched for something completely different. I've been worrying about it for months now but it's taken a turn for the worse and I'm making it a bigger thing than it is. I keep all my worries from my kids, it's killing me inside but they literally keep me going and are my world but as soon as they're asleep I cry. My DH knows and reassures me I've done nothing wrong but I just can't seem to stop worrying and imagining the worst. Two years ago I had a similar thing over a financial error and basically had a six month worrying period which resulted in me being prescribed ADs as I thought I was in trouble. I've had other little instances of this also. Even though I know I haven't done anything wrong intentionally im worried sick. Can't stop playing it over and over in my head and feel sick, heart constantly pounding and can't eat and sleep. If I read anything about the police or people being arrested I get worse instantly. I don't think I've ever broken the law in my life but my brain just keeps making me think I have. I can't carry on like this.

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AnxiousCarer · 10/10/2016 11:33

It doesn't sound like you've done anything wrong, I think most of us have at least once put something completely innocent in a search engine and its bought up a dodgy site. I remember a collegue saying she had had to quickly intervene when her daughter searched for "beautiful princesses"!

The anxiety levels are obviously interfering with your daily life so it might be worth a visit to the GP again. I wonder if something like CBT would be helpful for you to control this anxiety? Maybe something to discuss with them.

scared7778 · 10/10/2016 15:32

I've self referred to local CMH and they're going to contact me tomorrow but I know there's a big wait. Tried to get into GP but the one I can talk to is not available until 31st October. Thanks for your reply Smile

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Orchidflower1 · 10/10/2016 18:55

Hope you feel better soon - have you tried mind website? Xx

scared7778 · 10/10/2016 19:38

No I haven't. I really hoped I'd conquered this.... I will take a look thanks x

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