Anxious about specific

[anxiousandworried]

Hi, I am a regular but have changed my name for this as i am a bit embarrased about it.

ok, here goes.

Over the last few years i have had varying degrees of anxiety "pangs" about lots of things but just lately this has increased and i really dont know how to handle it.

My specific "worry" is that i am going to go to prison for something (i know, bonkers!) and that my dh and children will suffer untold sadness. Ok, i am kinda making light of it because it sounds so stupid when i write it down but it is seriously worrying me. I think i know how my life is gonna turn out and it involves me going to prison! For something along the lines of a car accident or something! NOTHING has happened in my past to ever make me think this could ever be possible but still i feel it.

Its almost getting to the point where i would rather stay at home than go out just in case something happens - and thats just not right.

Your advice, tips and understanding would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks for reading this.

anyone?

as in anyone around? will bump for you

no advice really but i am sure someone who has been through similar will be along soon X

After DS was born I developed a huge anxiety about my health and convinced myself that I had or was going to get cancer and die. I felt so certain of it, like you I somehow 'knew' this was going to happen to me. Every physical sensation was like a sign that it was there. I became obsessed with a mole thinking it was cancerous and became too frightened to look at it.

I was terrified for almost a year, worrying what would happen to DS and DH. At one point I kept my mobile with me at all times cause I was worried I would collapse in the house while alone with DS and that he wouldn't be found until DH got home.

I think this type of anxiety is about worrying about uncontrollable events and fear that the worst may happen, mine manifested into a health obsession and yours has taken a different focus.

I eventually saw my GP and started to take Citalopram and it has made a huge difference. You don't realise how unrational your thoughts are until they start to become clear again and at the time it doesn't matter that the logical side of you knows you're being ridiculous you just can't help it.

I feel so much better now, please go talk to your doctor about this, I'm sure they will be able to help you.

how are you?

Well it doesnt sound silly at all and you shouldnt be embarrassed.
I am going through exactly what tubismybub had. Also doing the exact same things like carrying my phone with me etc. When I had my dd I worried that I would go to prison and then had awful thoughts that I would harm my dd and thats why I would be going.

I too am taking Citalopram and having CBT. The Citalopram was working but it seems to have come to a standstill so I'm might be upping the amount.

Certainly go and see your gp. There are lots of things you can do to help yourself.