I feel exactly the same Op, have a good life, lovely husband and kids, no money worries, good PT job, but....feel so down.
DH & kids are away this week, with his parents, they go every year, I sometimes go for a couple of days but having already had time off for main family hols, I usually enjoy some me-time at home. Chilling, walking...but all I want to do is cry today!
I know its probably partly age (menopausal!) and I lost my mum earlier this year (though I was v much the scapegoat in family and she was horrible to me at times, still she was my mum). DS also going off to Uni, am thrilled for him, but am also feeling a bit 'empty nest' at him going.
We have had lots of health issues with DD over years, including hearing loss, always worried about how she would do at school. Her GCSE results weren't stellar, but good enough to get her onto next level - Business BTEC - except english which was 2 marks off a pass. It has gone off for a remark, failing that she will re-sit and we can afford plenty of tutoring to nudge her up to a C, so hardly the end of the world.
But still, I feel unreasonably depressed about it. Am already assuming the remark will fail (DH says I am unnecessarily negative, but they have tightened the re-mark system this year). Depressed that the tutors we have contacted haven't yet got back to me, but realistically I can't set anything up till we know her college schedule and ideally not till we know re-mark result. And I know its a bank holiday!!
So logic is telling me not to dwell on DDs exam result, it will sort itself, and that grief over losing mum and DS going away is normal - but I still cant shake myself up. I am going to go for a bike ride, which I know will lift my mood, but just getting changed into cycling gear is an ordeal.