Please just talk to me.

[AnyNameWillDoRightNow]

I'm desperate. Please just say something. I need to be distracted. Please.

I'm alone and I do t know I don't want to be right now.

And do you get really smelly wind with cheese like me?! I bet it's that

pensice tell me about your dogs...what are they? Tell me about their characters.

I only haven't because of dh, I can't hurt him. And me hurting me hurts him. But he's gone for a while and this time of year is hard. It got harder today. It feels like a string of excuses when I think of it all but I can't. I have thin skin and I don't cut any more I burn. I can't do it. I scar even from a scratch. My burns are awful. I have to cover everything or put up with questions or knowing looks

wombattoo sleep well, sweet dreams. Thank you for taking the time to chat.

That sounds hard on you, rightnow, but you've done this for a whole year , keep hold of that thought.

When is Dh back?

It sounds like you two are really close x

house I'm sure you're dh will enjoy the time with you DC free. Don't clean the house. Go out and have fun.

He's back on Friday. A week today. I'm usually strong. I've just been knocked for six today. I refuse to cry. Jaw us shaking but I refuse the tears

I'll be counting down the days with you.

Crying isn't too bad is it? Can be a good safe release of emotions.

I'm a cryer though, so may be biased

I'm saying to myself that I'll go to sleep at midnight but in truth I'll probably be playing games apps later. ATM I'm playing Candy Mania and Angry Birds Pop. It doesn't matter, I don't have to get up for anything in particular tomorrow, though I feel bad if I stay up into the early hours and then don't get up until nearly lunchtime.

Crying isn't a bad thing. I just refuse it now. Too many tears.it doesn't change what's happened.

I don't sleep really any more. A few ours a night if I'm lucky. Bit it's amazing what you can get done in that time.

Minds going crazy. It actually hurts. I need some relief. I feel so angry. I'm not an angry person. I'm really not. I don't shout or get angry. But I'm so angry I want to punch or kick or burn or bloody hell something. Just something

I know what you mean about getting stuff done when you can't sleep!

I'm gonna put my phone on charge now rightnow, and it's in the bedroom (I'm watching telly on the sofa), so going to go quiet for a while.

Will say night to you later x

I'm sorry all but I need the relief sorry

Don't do it sweetheart. The relief will be taken over my shame/disgust/hate

You know the not getting angry and shouting is why you turn it on yourself, don't you? We're all angry sometimes. We just deal with it in different ways.

Have you been watching the Olympics at all? There's a lovely bit with a young female trampolinist getting a silver medal which was totally unexpected. Have a look on iPlayer.

Hey, anytime. I'm heading up to bed soon, but just checking in with you. How are you doing? Ready to hit the sack yet or are you going to hang on for a bit?

Hi rightnow.

Hope you are still safely in your cucoon. X

Hi RightNow,

Have you been watching the olympics tonight? I've been watching the swimming. Michael Phelps got a silver tonight.

I'm sorry, AnyName, I nodded off last night! Long week. I hope you got some sleep too.
Things do often seem brighter in the morning, and I hope this is true for you today.
Thank you for asking about my dogs. I have two - one very old one who was completely bonkers in his youth, but is now just very sweet, and a middle-aged one who is invariably cheery and good-natured and who seems to understand everything I say and senses my every mood, she watches and listens to me so closely. Do you have any animals?

Good morning all, thank you to all of you for taking the time to chat with me last night it really helped.

Thank you

Yes thank you, it's a new day and time to pull up the socks and get on. Nothing really planned for the day, just cleaning and general sorting of the house. I might get the paint from the basement and touch up the living room.

Good morning Any
I hope today is better for you

Sounds like you have s busy day ahead I need to get out of bed and get stuff done but I'm being lazy.

Hi rightnow !

Sorting the house out sounds good.
The girls have gone , and I'm back in bed !

Got so much to do but it's my first break in three weeks and I am shattered ...