Hi, I'm looking for advice, I am really confused. I am generally a happy easy going person, I have suffered with anxiety in the past but never depression.
18 months ago I split with my husband ( though it felt like we were separated for years ), this was a tough time but I got through it and then met someone else, things have been hard with my new partner, and iver the last few months I have found myself feeling paranoid, very anxious and not sleeping. I have had bouts of anorexia and bouts of binge eating ( I am a bit OCD about my weight as I have lost a lot and now consider myself as being fit and not over weight ), my weight yo yo' which causes me more anxiety. For the past month or so I have been having problems sleeping, when I do sleep I have weird dreams, I often have hot sweats which makes sleeping even more difficult. I cry most days, just because I feel anxious and low, the slightest thing sets me off ( dp forgetting to text me, the kids not doing as they are told, etc...etc...).
For 5 days of the month I am hit with severe PMT, it's seems to be getting worse and then I get anxious knowing it's almost that time again. I can feel suicidal, I have self harmed ( once, but I'm finding it hard not to do it again ), I spend whole days just crying, I snap at dp and at the kids just for looking at me wrong.
My period has just finished and it resulted in dp trying to drive me to hospital ( I was that bad ), I persuaded him not too and he took me home, I have made an appointment for this week to see a female doctor. I really don't want to end up on anti depressants as I will worry more about gaining weight and the other side effects that come with using them.
This really isn't like me at all and I am wondering if it could be a hormonal imbalance ( thyroid related ) rather than depression?