Hi I am new to the board... but I did something years ago and I just can't talk to anyone IRL about it... so thought I would see if anyone else had been through something similar... please don't judge - I already do enough myself.
A number of years ago I was stuck in a very v/p/s abusive relationship and whilst on a summer holiday he raped me and left me in a very bad way. So much so that I packed a small bag and left the hotel and island the very next morning. We still had another week of the holiday left which gave me time to get to his place and collect my belongings and be gone before he got back to the UK. I had great support from family and friends but no-one knew all that had been going on. Much later, I discovered I was pregnant and I knew that if he ever found out he would never let me go. I hid the pregnancy from everyone (including doctors) and after the baby was born - in my flat when I was alone - I took it to the local hospital and left her there. He already has girls and he is so over protective of them I knew my daughter would have no life and I would have even less....
No-one knows to this day and he is well out of my life... but I can't stop thinking about my daughter....