I would like my anxiety to just sod off

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I don't expect replies but rl support is in short supply atm.

I've had anxiety and depression issues for 7 years and until 12 months ago it was managed fine. I tried different types of medication and counselling and it seemed like I was back on an even keel. Until two weeks ago when I started to fall again.

I'm unbelievably stressed at work - so much to do - and my elderly dad is causing me concern. I'm so fed up of feeling like I'm being ruled by anxiety. This shouldn't be me. I hate it.

I hear you. For weeks I've been good. No anxiety, no worries and then Bam. A bit of stress and it's all back. It's such a crap thing to have to deal with and it takes over a bit. I'd love to shove it in a box and drop it into the ocean.

How do you get yourself back on track?

I loved the honesty of your - 'anxiety - sod off' - if only! You don't reveal much but, in a paradoxical way, maybe getting back on track is not what is needed. It sounds as if 'the track' is what is causing the problem - for example, so much stress at work. If the anxiety has returned then it looks like you may need to go deeper psychologically. James Hollis does some excellent books on understanding the purpose and meaning of anxiety. Yes - strange as it sounds anxiety has a purpose.

I'm struggling to find the purpose (although I have become very mindful of mental health issues, which I do feel has been a strength I've developed).

Me too!! Had a good few weeks then just creeps back in. Fed up of it now. I don't have a plan but I can empathise.

I was really bad last week, and I've had the most awful weekend (my dad's very unwell and I've stupidly googled).

Actually dreading work tomorrow.