I had my boy July last year and the first 3 months I realised I was worrying about him dying randomly (as all new mums do) but when that passed n I got in t the swing of it all I realised that I'm overly aware of everything I put in to myself, (stopped smoking weed, stopped eating greasy foods, stopped anything unhealthy and unnatural basically) and started getting chest pains, like stabbing pains and constant dull aching) and also the feeling that my tongue/throat is tightening, and it all always on my left side, and I get myself in a state of panic, crying, thinking I'm dying, wondering what will happen to my baby n how I'd miss him growing up, how i know it's all in my head yet 'if it is why can I physically feel pain' but more despair n agitated that this has happened as I was so carefree before having my perfect boy..and so I go to the doctors and when CBT didn't help they prescribed me propranolol but I tried it once made me worse as it works by slowing your heart rate and I have a naturally low heart rate, so they've now given me 2mg diazepam and (ironically) I'm too anxious to try it, even when I'm in the middle of a major panic..
So.. I was just wondering is anyone else has had something like this or post baby anxiety and if there is a magic switch t fix my scrambled egg brain back t normal, or if it's worth me taking the diazepam as I've heard they're addictive N make you "stoned" n I can't be drugged up when I have my boy t think of n play with..
Rant over, cheers guys x